Where are you now? Who are you? Would your younger self like your adult self? What advice would you give yourself from now to then?
I think a lot of me has continued to be that girl. I've grown and changed in ways I could've never imagined.
I loved ballet, horseback riding, creative writing, relationships, quality time, good food, and outdoor time. I was blessed with great friends,a wonderful family and married the boy who stole my heart at 16.
I had dreams of helping people, getting married, having kids, adopting, living on acreage. I lived lite loved without holding back and saw the best in people and the world.
Today with the responsibility of life on my shoulders, I can feel weary, worn out, joyful, excited, exhausted, abundant and depleted at the same time. I want to strive to hit the mark but also have freedom to fail. I want to keep digging into relationships when I have seen many come and go.
I want to tap into the eternal God who is above time, who is the real one who carries our lives. Give my burdens, fears, failures, falsities, dreams and hopes to him. I want to play more, laugh with pure joy more, connect with friends new and old more, and fiercely surrender everything to the one who gives me each breath.
Without Him holding me, I am nothing. No one I can raise will complete me. No one I can encourage will validate me. A clean house, perfect presentation, or an American dream fulfilled will not complete me.
I want to trust Jesus even more today than I did when I had to worry about my Dr. martens looking good and fresh. When I'm 99, I want to be asking for the same dependence.
Today I choose to be a child. A child who laughs with delight at the Father who made me, gave me life and wants to do life with me.
I hope you will experience this too!
